Drawing Me

So, We have been busy with the regular throes of everyday life. Ryken is feeling much better now. Marty is still coughing up a lung. I believe he is at the end of the virus and soon he will better. Bishop just came home today and announced he had 4 tests tomorrow. It is Monday! That is rough. Seth has one and he made a 100% on the science test he took. I am really a little overwhelmed by the amount of homework the guys have. It often makes me think twice about school all day and that much homework. I don't remember ever having this much.

We are also on a journey, we stay open to what God has for us to do on every level. We have been involved in making many decisions over the past few years. God has never let us down and he has stepped with us as we walk out a path that at times is very unclear to us. Only God knows the path. We must lean on the navigator. Marty's work as a Producer is going really well and he loves it. He also continues to do concerts but leads worship much more often. We know God has called him to use those gifts that he fostered in Marty as a young boy. When Marty was 12 he used to sit under the large tree in his yard and play his guitar and sing worship songs. When ever we have decisions to make, I often find my husband in the dark playing guitar and worshiping until early in the am.

I am a worshiper in the mist. I find myself in worship as I get ready in the mornings or while I wash laundry. I do take time to sit, pray and worship in my personal quite times, but many answers and directions come in the midst of mundane tasks for me.

Ya know, I am so glad that I and my life are a work in progress. I don't know about you but I haven't gotten it right yet. I make mistakes and I have to back up and look at the situation, to even realize where I have been. This reflection is an incredible tool, not to repeat the mistakes. I am glad that I am not the person I used to be and I am not yet the person I will be.

“Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.* All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.” - 1 Cor. 13:12 (NLT)

Listen to the song Here

DRAWING ME

WHAT HAVE I BECOME
A SINNER OR A SON
I FEEL LIKE SUCH A STRANGER
IN MY OWN SKIN
AM I A CHILD OF GRACE
OR JUST SOME PASSING TRACE
OF EVERYTHING I’VE HOPED FOR
OR COULD HAVE BEEN

WHEN PARTS OF MY LIFE
SEEM SKETCHY AT BEST
I NEED TO REMEMBER
I JUST CAN’T SEE THE REST

CAUSE I’M NOT YET THEM MAN I WILL BE
THE IMAGE IS STILL INCOMPLETE
IF ONLY THESE EYES NEVER CEASED TO SEE
IN THE BIGGER PICTURE
HE’S STILL DRAWING ME

I CAN’T GET PAST THE PAIN
DARK MEMORIES REMAIN
LIKE COLD FAMILIAR VOICES
THEY CALL MY NAME
WILL I RISE ABOVE
COULD I TRULY LOVE
HOLDING BACK ON NOTHING
EXCEPT THE SHAME

WHEN SCARS ON MY HEART
ARE ALL THAT I FEEL
I NEED TO REMEMBER
HIS HEART IS GREATER STILL

CHORUS

I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE
BUT I KNOW THAT MY LIFE WILL TELL WITH TIME
AND DOWN THIS ROAD, WHEN I STAND IN PERFECT LIGHT
I WILL SEE THE PURPOSE IN HIS DESIGN

CHORUS

...IN THE BIGGER PICTURE
HE’S STILL DRAWING ME